An S/H Present Tense story that brings Bay City characters into the present.
Posted by CopConfused36 – 3 days ago. Found on reddit by Nicoltyler
Hi, I’m not sure if this is the right place, but I wasn’t sure where else to turn.
Me (M36) and my partner (also M36) are both cops. We’ve been through a lot together over the years, but recently, things have gotten really complicated, and I could use some advice.
About six months ago, my partner was shot in our police parking garage by a really bad guy. He nearly died, and it’s been a long road to recovery. During his recuperation, I’ve been taking care of him, making sure he’s okay physically and emotionally. We’ve grown even closer during this time, but now that he’s about to come back to work, things have gotten tense.
We’ve been arguing a lot lately, especially about him returning to duty. I think it is because I’m terrified of losing him again. The thought of him getting hurt or worse is more than I can handle.
A week ago, we had a massive fight. It was about him coming back to being a cop, and things got really heated. He finally demanded to know why I was so against his return. In the heat of the moment, I blurted out, “Because I love you.” It was like the words just spilled out before I could stop them.
He didn’t say anything immediately, and the silence stretched on. I started to panic and eventually just left. Since then, I’ve been avoiding him. He’s been calling, texting, emailing, and trying to FaceTime, but I haven’t responded. I’m scared he’s going to tell me he wants a new partner, that he doesn’t feel the same way, or even worse, that he wants me out of his life altogether.
To give you more context, my partner and I have always had a deep bond. We trust each other with our lives, and this near-death experience brought us even closer. During his recovery, I realized my feelings for him were more than just friendship. I fell in love with him, in a way that goes beyond just pals. Like wanting to kiss him and spend the rest of my life with him kinda love.
Now, with him coming back to work, I’m scared. I’m scared of losing him to the dangers of the job, and I’m scared of losing him because of my feelings. I don’t know if he feels the same way, and that uncertainty is eating me alive. When I blurted out my confession, I hoped for some sign, any sign, that he might feel the same. But his silence was crushing.
I don’t know what to do. Should I face him and talk it out, risking whatever he might say? Or is it better to keep my distance and wait for him to make the first move? I’m really torn and could use some advice on how to handle this situation.
Thanks in advance for any help.
–CopConfused36
